What's N E X T...

Man, Idk whay else to do...
I don't wanna leave it alone because I care too much...
But I refuse to put myself out there and C O N T I N U E to recieve nothing...
It seems like it's just E X C U S E after E X C U S E...
A part of me wants to just say "Okay, he just needs time and be paitent..."
But I can't do that because of the inquiory...
It really is killin' me...
All I wanna know is whats inside if his head...
I wanna know what he thinks of me...
I wanna hear it from HIM D I R E C T L Y...
I'm not askin' for too much...
Am I???
It's not like I want a relationship right away...
And its not like I want him to change either...
I like him just the way he is...
I guess he has low self-esteem or something because he is perfect to me...
Idk...
I just wanna know if the feeling is mutal for sure...
Because right now I'm just goin' off of he said she said and its tearin' me up inside...
I just want all of the games to stop and I want him to just talk to me on some real stuff...
And not talk through anyone else...